The scar is healing really nicely. It turns out that most of the grossness that I shared previously was actually from the surgical tape holding some of the crud against it. The surgeon told me to go ahead and take off the tape, and after I did it looked MUCH better.
Life has generally gotten a little easier since my follow-up three days ago. I can take normal showers now. I don’t have to fuss around with bandages on my shoulder anymore, and I don’t worry as much about a little sweat. And this may sound strange, but now that I’ve seen the hardware and how solid it all looks I feel a little less paranoid about somehow messing it up.
I still have random painful moments, where I need to take some Tylenol and go sit by myself for a bit. They seem to happen mostly in the evenings. I have never been a touchy-feely person but now I REALLY need my personal space, even when others are nowhere near my shoulder. I can deal with it (I’m not beating people off with sticks or anything) but it makes me pretty anxious.
Mentally I’m doing a lot better. The walks are still helping a lot. Definitely not the same as running, but I can’t overstate the importance for me of movement, fresh air and a change of scenery. Getting dressed and making myself presentable has gotten a bit easier too. The other day some family members and friends worked together so that I could get a blowout. After not being able to style my hair properly for a month, it helped tremendously.